MaYB ..MaYB noT...

No matter how much I try to deny.
No matter how much I try to repress.
My subconscious still bangs your memory into my head.
No matter how long it's been.
You're still the one I dream of.
You're still the only one I think of.
In my best and worst times.
I still find myself daydreaming of being with you.
You, being here with me....

But
I still know it'll never happen.
It still hurts, what you did to me.
I still know you deserve someone much better than me ..
I still keep dreaming...

A few more months ??.
That's all I'll ever have to endure...??
After that...
It's done.
Maybe my dreams of you will finally cease.
Maybe your image will me erased from my mind.
My memory. My sanity.
Maybe we'll never cross each other's paths ever again.
Maybe I'll stop wanting you, needing you.
Maybe seventeen years of pining will finally end.
But then again, maybe not.