ChoIcES ..?? ReaLLY??

They say we all have to make choices
but sometimes
they are not ours to make
sometimes
we cannot choose
cannot control
and this makes us scared
makes me scared
that i feel things
and i do things
that i cannot choose
because i have already chosen
or at least my mind has
and i can\'t change it
can\'t let it change
can\'t be something
that im not
its like standing before a wall
a huge brick wall
and knowing
that you can\'t climb it
or go around it
that there is a barrier
which is inpassable
so you can\'t reasonably choose
to go over a wall
which is impossible to climb
so you make the only other choice
which will keep you sane
and that is to remain
to stay before the wall
i wish
there weren\'t so many barriers
in life there are so many
so many choices
which you are expected to make
which have already been made
without you
or for you
or by you, unknowingly
i don\'t want to make choices
i don\'t want to choose
not this time...
and i don\'t have to
because there is no choice
no decision to make
the answer lies before me
like the brick wall
the only question is
do i see and accept it
or do i keep trying
trying to get over it....