LiFE & PeopLE...

Life begins as a blank piece of paper. You write on, draw on, tear, erase, and otherwise alter the paper as your life goes on, but its still the same piece. It has the same potential as anyone else's, the same size. But you make it your own, you host your life, in all its shame and glory, upon that page. And most people, they don't give a damn. They're too busy getting pens and ink to look at your piece, let alone to colour their own. And there are those who seek to destroy their paper, or keep it blank and free from danger, but also the charm of a wide life....

But those souls you must look out for are the ones who seek to colour the paper of others, to tinge their lives with rainbow hues... For these are the true artists, who seek to express emotion through action, not word. Through deed, not drawing. Rather than place their expression on a canvas, they take it to the world, and spread it over everyone and everything they see.....

This is the mark of the truly creative; who can create hope where there was only despair....I am blessed to have known at least a few such people so early in my life...I don't know why but i just wish to convey a heartfelt thank you to one of those....Misha Di...Thank you for being there...I am not sure if/how/when i ll have an opportunity to return the favor ..but i promise I'll try my best...

BlaH....

I sit and wonder day by day..minute by minute, second by second. ..I run it through my mind over and over and still...nothing...I wonder if I will ever be right, or if I am ever wrong.

As I sit here I ponder over these things and in the end try to come to one conclusion...but above all else I find that.......there is no ONE answer that is truly correct...

Some random thoughts that i m having at the moment are ....

-->I don’t think I’m going to stop loving you any time soon..and yeah for whatever happened i don't /won't blame or hate you for in the slightest.

-->I feel (though i m not sure )that sometimes I go over-the-top . Do my actions annoy you? Am I too affectionate?

--> If loving someone too much was a crime, I’d be serving life in jail right now.

-->-I’m hurting, hurting almost constantly, but I smile, smile every day. Smile for you, smile for me, smile for us.

--> Now on i m gonna try a lil less harder to get u off my mind ...coz Its like being stuck in a pit of sand... the more I struggle to get U off your mind the more I sink....

-->-You must hate me for how stupid I am....always jumping to conclusions ...

-->-I’m far too excitable. Far too vain. Far too idiotic...never listening ,never understanding ...like a stubborn 4 year old kid ...yeah i deserve these hard blows ...as punishment ...

-->Honesty sucks ,i've learned that the hard way .But i am grateful to U for being honest with me .

-->For everything that happened and the state i am in ..i blame nobody but myself.

-->My Life has changed ...I have changed ...and i somehow hold you responsible for that ..not sure if the change this time is for the good .

-->U crushed a hope ...but U gave me another ...The belief that life isn’t as bad as I think it is.Thank you ...

My ExperiMenTs WitH FaiTH-1:FaitH or FaTE??

Do you believe in Faith,
or do you rely on the cold hand of fate?
When life gets better,
are you doing things right?
When life gets better,
do you have one of the fingers taking up your fight?
When life becomes hell,
did you make a mistake?
When life becomes hell,
is the hand pressing for you to break?
Can you follow your instincts,
make this life into what you want?
Are your actions meaningless,
your life already played out?

ChoiCes We MakE....

What makes people choose the paths they walk? What is it that makes anyone decide which way to take in a fork in the road? What makes someone turn right when clearly they were signalling left? The human mind is a complex thing. We spend the rest of our lives believing that we have a choice, never knowing or understanding the reason behind the choices we make.

In that ignorance…we are forced to walk the path we are already walking without any way of turning back…anyway of true choice. That is the illusion in which we all thread upon. Ignorance in the belief we can make a choice. We see it everyday. People trapped in the consequence that they created. From the tasks we do, to the love we give, to the life we choose.

We couldn't possibly make a choice at that moment because the options are already closed. We're only living out the consequence of something we probably decided a long time ago. Once the choice has been made, then we can only wait for it to be played out…not immediately…but in time the full extent of those actions will be revealed. That's why the choices we make are illusions. That's why we spend our lives saying we have no choice.

We've already made our choice a long time ago. Now we're just playing it as it is supposed to be played. Anything else are just extras....

MaYB ..MaYB noT...

No matter how much I try to deny.
No matter how much I try to repress.
My subconscious still bangs your memory into my head.
No matter how long it's been.
You're still the one I dream of.
You're still the only one I think of.
In my best and worst times.
I still find myself daydreaming of being with you.
You, being here with me....

But
I still know it'll never happen.
It still hurts, what you did to me.
I still know you deserve someone much better than me ..
I still keep dreaming...

A few more months ??.
That's all I'll ever have to endure...??
After that...
It's done.
Maybe my dreams of you will finally cease.
Maybe your image will me erased from my mind.
My memory. My sanity.
Maybe we'll never cross each other's paths ever again.
Maybe I'll stop wanting you, needing you.
Maybe seventeen years of pining will finally end.
But then again, maybe not.

I WisH...

Sometimes...
It hurts so much,
That U know there is one person...
Just Right there, Infront of u....
With Whom u want to spend rest of ur life,
And, it all seems right...

But still all u can say...
I wish.....

HavE U FelT ?

Have you ever felt that you had no idea what you’re doing? That time suddenly spirals into a black hole, and your life is swept up by it?...

WHY? !!

Why? The only question.
This simple word shall haunt my days.
Why have i done what ive done/
Why did i believe what i was doing was right?
What i've done is through.
Ive set fire to my dreams.
This fire has left scars and blisters on my life.
Thus i stand burning in my own self-mutany, left burning as a beacon for others.

Let not your heart lead your mind, for this path will set u ablaze.

Let Go ...

"....That is why it is so important to let certain things go. To release them. To cut loose. People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Don't expect to get anything back, don't expect recognition for your efforts, don't expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood. Complete the circle. Not out of pride, inability or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life. Close the door, change the record, clean the house, get rid of the dust. Stop being who you were and become who you are...."

NoT SuRE..

I'm not quite sure anymore
There's a window and there's a door
I take the window and I might escape
But should I, instead, remain on the floor?

Asking questions, like acid rain
The answers I get don't fill the void
My subconscious is walking with a cane
That helps me up from the floor where i've lain..

Seventeen years have come and gone
I still don't see the light
They told me it was at the end of the tunnel
All I find is a deeper cut..

Ambiguity, when one thing means another
It begins to all makes sense
Then the pieces fall
From the floor and to the wall

Gravity seems ineffective
Against this discrepancy of nature
I just want the pieces back on the floor
In a dream I took the door

Or was it reality in which I see
The hinge is broken
The door hangs off
The doorway becomes blurry

I turn back to the window
It seems familiar
I take a few steps
The window becomes blurry

No place to run
No place to hide
No place to sit
No bus to ride....

Do V ?

Do we really ever have a choice?
Or is it all down to fate?
Is it fate that you don\'t own a Rolls Royce?
Is it fate if you drop a plate?

Maybe we have several fates,
And choose which life to lead,
Maybe they\'re joined by forks and gates,
Yet, for choice, there is a need.

When we don\'t have choice,
We want to rebel, react,
We want that rich guys Rolls Royce,
WE want to be the guy with impact.

But is it fate when we are poor?
Is it fate when we fall in Love?
Is it fate that her heart, for me, has no door?
Is it fate when Life gives that final shove?

Maybe we have a limited role,
Maybe we can\'t be in control,

The fate is always there to bring us down,
Does God treat us like a mere clown?

I wonDeR ...

it is choice that brought me to this place
it is choice that has taken me away
it is choice that tore my heart to shreds
it is choice that will heal
it is choice to burrow down inside myself
willing the sunlight to not invade
it is choice to seal off a tomb of raw pain
emotions struggling like writhing snakes
it is choice to make a cold decision
unwilling to release its pain, only to escape
will it be choice to emerge into the light
will it be choice to laugh again
will it be choice to feel those emotions again ...!!
will it be chosen?

I DiDnT KnOW....

This world is full of choices
Some are right, and some are wrong
I made the choice to love you
Though I didn’t know it all along...

And then i knew...
I was falling so deep into love
And I was in love with you...

I didn’t want to believe it
I tried with all my strength to fight my heart
I never thought that I was worth it
But that was just blindness on my part...

Some choices we make are made with the heart
Others are made with the mind..
I know that I have doubted my decisions
But fate has learned to be kind...

I know that my heart runs wild
And it says things that aren’t true
But there is one choice that I know was right
Because my heart chose you....

and yes ..this is also true ...
I ll keep loving you ...

CrosSroADS.....

Endless tears that never come,
My heart pulls to-and-fro.
Forever pondering to answer a question,
An answer I yet do not know.

I am at a crossroads,
So unsure of what I should do.

I'm so confused and torn apart.
Why does my heart keep beating
When my world is falling apart?

Help me to decide, oh plz
What is best for me.
Help to ease my breaking heart
And pick me up off my humbled knees...

Why can't I choose?
Why is this so hard to do?
If only I didn't love so hard
Maybe I wouldn't have 2..

SinKinG....

Sitting here after being told,
Waiting for it to sink in.
Not knowing what will come of it,
Not even knowing where to begin.
I don't feel angry or upset,
None of these I feel at all.
Not even sure what I feel,
Probably cause im talking to a wall.
It hasn't really hit me,
And it won't for some time.
But it will hit me hard,
This i know ...

I walk along an empty hallway,
Feeling all eyes on me.
Waiting for the response I give,
Open for the world to see.
Should I turn my back on you,
And let you watch me walk away....

Wondering if you will realize,
The great thing you had and lost.
The one of a kind guy whose mental frequency will match with your's,
And the one you just tossed....

I SiT HeRE...

I sit here now,
Looking at my life,
Thinking of choices,
The choices of life,
The choice that leads me to you,
The choice that leads me to the fork in the road,
The choice that leads me to the light,
The choice that made me say I love you,

The choice that brings me here,
The choice to go left or right,
The choice that could make it all or break it all,
The choices we make everday,
The choices, the choices...

I M FinE....

I want to say “I’ll be fine“,
But I can’t stop worrying all the time.
All these choices,
Coming from concerned voices...
I really wish I knew,
What it is I‘m supposed to do.
Why can’t I just make a decision,
Without making a complete revision?......

ChoIcES ..?? ReaLLY??

They say we all have to make choices
but sometimes
they are not ours to make
sometimes
we cannot choose
cannot control
and this makes us scared
makes me scared
that i feel things
and i do things
that i cannot choose
because i have already chosen
or at least my mind has
and i can\'t change it
can\'t let it change
can\'t be something
that im not
its like standing before a wall
a huge brick wall
and knowing
that you can\'t climb it
or go around it
that there is a barrier
which is inpassable
so you can\'t reasonably choose
to go over a wall
which is impossible to climb
so you make the only other choice
which will keep you sane
and that is to remain
to stay before the wall
i wish
there weren\'t so many barriers
in life there are so many
so many choices
which you are expected to make
which have already been made
without you
or for you
or by you, unknowingly
i don\'t want to make choices
i don\'t want to choose
not this time...
and i don\'t have to
because there is no choice
no decision to make
the answer lies before me
like the brick wall
the only question is
do i see and accept it
or do i keep trying
trying to get over it....

ChoiCS...arghh ChoiCES....

Choices Choices…so many choices and so many roads to take. I don't see how some people keep saying they have no choices in life. Everything is right there in front of us…the small little catch is that we have to actually open our eyes to fully grasp the full context of what those choices mean.

Maybe like one of my friends said…I can see my choices because I kinda see them ahead of time. It's like knowing what hits you before it does. But how can I do that when I don't even know what's going to hit me? I didn't even know I'm going to be in this situation…arghh…you think I planned to be stuck in the middle? I plan to watch and listen to people being stuck in the middle…but not be part of it. How ironic life is. Well you know what ? God does have a sense of humour…that explains everything indeed.

:O

How many people live the way they want? How many people want to live the way they want?

ThE PractiCAlitiES....

What qualities define love? What are the traits and characteristics that a loving relationship has to possess in order to be something that holds true…something that can endure the ages, if not eternity. What is the hardest price to pay to be with person you love for the rest of your life?

How far would you go the person you love?

We all got our prices on love, we all got our distance to go for the people we care for. In most cases, saying it is indeed very very different than doing it in the first place. For instance…how many of us have said we would die for the person we love? Raise your hands anyone? Yeah…we have all said that in at least one point in our relationships. Now…raise your hands for those of you that actually got a chance to prove it in the first place?

Anyone?

Well…technically people who did prove it would probably be dead by now, but the point is…there is a very very small fraction of us that would be willing to do just that. We don't hear that part often in our cynical and jaded world. It's something that only true romantics are willing to go through for…and that in our world is not often believed.

Of all the qualities that loving relationship has, trust, devotion, communication, compassion, compromise and sacrifice...(kk..and matching mental frequencies as well !!! ) I find sacrifice to be the hardest to follow through. Sacrifice is closely related to trust…trust that the person you love will be there to hold you when you decide to fall…when you decide to let go of the things you hold on most dearly...

I would be willing to do it for eternity...

It's not easy…it never is. But then…love won't be worth every bit of sweat and blood if it was easy to walk past. How else can anyone appreciate what they have if they didn't die a few times to get it? I know in the end i'll get there ...

All i could have given you was the the promise of forever...

The rest is for a future to tell...

And forever to live by....

Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does.......

ITs AlwaYS BeEn Ur ChoiCE...

Choices in life. That's what we all have. Choices. The power to choose what we want and how we want it. Even in seemingly impassable areas of our lives where we find ourselves at a dead end do we still have choices to make. Do we try and go foward? Do we give up? Choices, that is the price of life that we have, the key that defines us as who we are and where our destiny lies...

Again I am faced with a dilemma in my life, an emotionally wrecking at that…it's a life defining time .... Do I stand where I am and try and pull myself back up in life or do I risk the moment and see what may come for a future even I can't predict if I wanted to?

Choices, choices. Though it turns out that sometimes the hardest choices to ever make in life are deceptively the easiest choices to choose from. It's just that everyone already made their choices in life from the moment they face their problems, the real fuss comes when you actually have to put their choices into action…then most people are faced with something they don't expect. The fact that they still have to make a choice to overcome the problems in making their first choice.

And so everything else that follows it comes from the moment you make your first choice in the matter. Choices within choices within choices. That's what life is really all about. That's what we have to live with for as long as we can keep living.

So where do I stand now? I made my choice. I'm going back. Going back because I want a better future for myself, going back because right now there is nothing here for me to hold on to and be happy about, going back because there is a risk I have to take for something everyone wants but no one really gets - another chance in life...

At the end of it, I know where I'm heading. I just need to know how I can get there in one piece. Though it shouldn't be so hard. After all, it's one choice after another. We all know what we have to do. One way or another…everything works out, it's just whether it will be a choice you can live with or a choice you're going to hate yourself for the rest of your life. Because being human, it isn't about choosing to start the things we live with…it's about how we chose to end the things we live with....

MemoRIES.....

Have you ever imagined what’s the best feeling in the world?
Thinking of those moments spent with her
Reviving those pretty instances in time
Ahh..
Every little touch… every word of hers
Which you go through again and again
Imagining and re thinking your reactions
What you could have said better, what you could have done better..

Flowing with the music..
Crying because you felt and saw her pain
Weeping because of the joy reflecting in her
The brightness her thoughts bring to you,
You can spend a lifetime in those deft moments..

She loves me… She loves me not.
Shall I call her now… or later?
Such perplexities, in fact make your day.
In such thoughts are the best part of your life lived.

If only you could see her again..
If only you could speak to her again..
If only you could touch her..

So what if I cant see her?
So what if I cant speak to her?
So what if I cant touch her?
So what if she never will know that I loved her..
I have spent the best moments and thoughts of life..
Immersed in her ocean of love…

[Sourced from :http://karanatiiit.wordpress.com/2007/10/07/dream-on/]

OverwhelmeD ...

i am feeling so overwhelmed, that i dont even know what how i feel anymore…is it possible to walk through your own life so numb? not knowing what you’re doin who you’re seeing, talking to, you know you’re hungry but u dont want to eat. sleep belies ur eyes... too disinterested to take a shower, to change… i know i have to work to make a career,to stand to my family's expectations but it’s all too familiar...at least they put a smile on my face…most of the time. . why does my head hurt soo much!? i’m just tired of it all, i’m soo overwhelmed....

HoW StraNGE...

You want to give it up
You can’t let go
You wanna say goodbye
But say hello.....

It doesn't take a reason to love someone, but it does to like someone. You don't love someone because you want to, you love someone because you are destined to. It's because you fall in Love with them, that you then try to find a reason, but you always come up with the answer, No reason!

EveR WonDeRED?

The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment, when you are between asleep and awake, when you don't know the difference between reality and fantasy, when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the dream is reality, and it really happened...:):)

DiD U...

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
She's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying she's just another girl,
But deep inside, you know you are in love....

It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that she's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for her to know??....

WheN DreamS BecoME NiGHtmareS...

I used to call myself a dreamer ...there was a time when I knew exactly what i wanted out of my life ..I had a dream ....A dream which i had lived by day in and day out for 17 years ...longg time ..eh ...but suddenly, i've lost it ...and i am told that all those years i've been walking in the sleep ...trying to make that dream come true ..Today ,as i stand ..I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get through anything, but inside I'm fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack.What I'm afraid of is shattering.I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what do I want to do.All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me.Why is it soo difficult to forgive OURSELVES sometimes ??...It's the loneliest feeling in the world - to find yourself standing up when everyone else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say "what's the matter with him?" I know what it feels like. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. And you aren't sure whether you're walking toward something, or if you're just walking away....

i MisS U.....NOT

When I lie upon my bed
And twist and turn for rest
Sleep alludes my eyes
Thoughts play hard upon my mind,
I am in such unrest
Maybe the day was bad
And with everyone I fought
Do not think I miss you
B'coz I miss you.....NOT

When i feel a surging pain
And I'm OK I pretend
I concentrate and try to read
all those printed words
But I cannot comprehend
Maybe my glasses then
to put on I just forgot
Do not think I miss you
B'coz I miss you .......NOT

sTop!!.....EnouGH is EnouGH ...

Ahan !!! Finally i've been asked to stop !!!They asked me why do I always do that,write poems so dark,write lines darker than black,but they should think for once,I am a lost knight with a broken lance,how can I be happy when I hv got nothing,no tunes to hum, no songs to sing, I have seen my feelings die in front of me ...,I have lost my smiles ,that I know,but i am trying my best now,I have to get over it somehow.Well ,I m NoT a poet or a writer ..or a blogger!!..I know it doesn't feel good reading what i write..but then ever imagined ..the state i m in isn't pleasant either !?Its just that i don't want to let go what I am feeling at the moment,I m just putting them through ..I'm writing it all for myself !!..i know this is a unique phase of my life ...i ll never get through this again ...so i want to experience these feelings to the fullest ..and maybe look back at them a few years from now ...and try to feel the intensity of the pain i went through now.....how can I write something that's not real,just how can I dance with blood on my feet,how can I smile as my, heart doesn't beat... how?

Ek LakeeR TerE naAM Ki...

Ek lakeer tere naam ki!!!
kuch udaas,kuch khamosh,kuch bebas si
lakeerein mere haath ki..

Dhoondta rehta hoon aksar in lakeeron mein...
Ek lakeer tere naam ki!!!

kuch maloom bhi hai..
kuch dil bhi jaanta hai..
ki in lakeeron mein lakeer nahi tere naam ki......

Phir bhi na jaane kyun aksar dhoondta rehta hoon
aksar Ek lakeer tere naam ki!!!!!

I SiT HerE...

I sit idle and quiet...numb and spaced-out...my mind stuck NO WHERE...I think was this just ALL my life? Why does it feel ENDED without you.....as if you're the central word of my life?...I sit idle and numb in my room thinking nothing yet my heart and mind keep calling...your name...I just wonder one thing...why doesn't my mind break through all the chains you have prisoned it into? Why doesn't my heart stop beating? when I know you're no where! ... I just sit numb thinking and thinking...

SomEThING ...

Something so hard
goes straight to the soul;
it seems impossible to get over
and my heart is left with a big hole.

I'm trying to be happy, wearing a smile;
but I'm dying inside.
The world seems to be fading,
and I just want to run and hide....

Once you have loved, You will always love. For what's in your mind may escape, but what's in your heart will remain forever. There is no instinct like that of the heart.

~Lord Byron.

WouLD HaVE Been BettER...

A Direct No Would Have Been Better
Wishing to be her friend
Hoping for sleepless nights to end
I made her an open request
Leaving to her, the rest..

I knew a Yes was not so sure
But it wasn't a No I was looking for
A No would leave me hurt
A No is what I've never heard..

I felt my world would end if she said No
Then what would I do,I didn't know
If it's a no she wants to say
Isn't there any other way?

She was as good as ever
And knew,it's a No I fear
So to let her feelings shed
She took the other way,as I wished...

She behaved as if nothing had happened...!!

I still dont know ..wat it really is ...
Is it really that she is personally disinterested ...
or shez too practical ?
or I'm too unrealistic ?

I'm Not someone ...she would hate..
But i coudn't be the one ...she would love...

She made me feel so low
Never thought,this she could do
But she isn't rude,I should say
That it was just her way....

At the end I'm bruised and hurt
But there is a lot I've learnt
And there's something I'm happy for
To her I'm not a stranger anymore..

So I think now it's time to let go
My obsession for no NO
Because as I watch my dreams shatter
I feel a direct No would have been better...

SoME...

SoMe PoEmS DoN't RhYMe ...sOmE sTORiEs Don't hV A CleAr BeGGiNiNg, MiDdLe Or An EnD !

WherE tO gO...

Where to go and why to go?
Every day I seek to find the truth of life!
Through my heart and through my mind!
From every soul I ask a question!
Where did I come and where do I go???
I talk, I live!
But their is a question!
To whom shall I forgive?

BeCauSE...

She asked me...Why did I love HER ??
and I couldn't give a reason !!

Today ,

I feel it can only be explained by replying:

"Because it was her; Because it was me."

..................

I juS...

I just hope to sleep
And never awaken
Nothing left in this world
Could replace what you have taken....


-Sandy Cheney

YoU....

There were many ways of breaking a heart. Stories were full of hearts being broken by love, but what really broke a heart was taking away its dream-whatever that dream might be.

--Pearl Buck

For ME that dream was you...

SomeTimES ....

Sometimes...I think...was it all worth it?? The pain I went thru...the pain I'm goin through...of a broken heart and shattered dreams; of unanswered questions and questions that were never asked; of times we spent together and which we didn't ,times that I thought shall always last.
Well...that was'nt to be, and all u left me with was a bruised ego, an aching heart and some bitter-sweet memories....

Now when I look back ,I often ask myself, "Was it all worth?? " and yes...I feel it was...I can go through this pain a million times,just to re-live those moments when I may have caused a smile on your face ...when i was of any help to u , moments believing in a future ..which eventually wont come true ....when i thought I loved U..today ,tommorow,forever...

Its just that ...U didn't feel the same ...I fell short of being worth it ...But i did try my best ....to be someone u could see a future with ...and i honestly did...Still sometimes even ur best is just not good enough ...

"U believed in a future which u could see " while "I saw a future i believed in " ...But

Sometimes.....

A ReaSON tO HolD On...

What are we suppose to do
After all that we’ve been through
When everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone..

There is nothing left to prove
Now here’s to deny this simple truth
Can’t find the reason to keep holding on
Now that the love is gone..

Love is gone

It's a hard time
Love is gone
It's a hard time
Got to find the reason


Love is gone
Love is gone

Got to find a reason to hold on...

NoTHInG MoRE tO SaY...

Up until now
I had so much to say
but it's everything I've said
that's gotten in my way

I won't talk about you
anymore to anyone
the time for that has passed
it's just over with and done

supposed-to-be forgotten words
are still dancing in my head
and I'm just trying to "not remember"
a single thing you've said

I wanna forget all about you
who you are and what your name is
cause it's causing so much pain
and I honestly can't take this..

.................

when the pages of life come to an end..
u'll be one the beatiful chapters of it..;
n if i ever get it to read it again..
i'll start from the page wen i saw u for the first time!!!

ThE WaIT......

Clock Ticks as I await
The hour ends before my take
Sitting, thinking, waiting; my mind escapes..

The day grows old as night passes
Tests,Books,People Talking ;Lafing... anticipating
Watching, staring, seeing -- nothing

Silence begins the day
As morning comes without notice
Memories begin to dawn, slowly..

The day moves on without hope
Wishing to be what is not to be

The sun moves to its peak
without a whisper or retreat

Time moving, but still empty
Heart aching, curling
Still waiting..

ItS OveR ?? ...

Thinking about the future
wondering at the past
Living just the present
Being a bit sad

I wonder why it
Turned out the way it had
Why isn't it the way I planned
Why's the dream broken in my hands

Why was it me and no one else
Why am I all alone
How shall i go on to live in this world so fake
Was it all really just a big mistake ??

Where do i bury these feelings ..
That they stop bothering me ...

Where do i bury this pain ..
That it stops killing me ...

Where do i hide all this love in me ...
Which you don't realize ,cant even see...

Where shall i bury my dream !
Where shall i get a new one ?
Where am I supposed to get a new one ?
Where am I supposed to see
Is it my dream that I have lost
Or is it just me....

................BleSSinG In DisguiSE...........???

Are you lonely - are you crying
are those teardrops in your eyes
is it more blues - is it bad news
is it a curse, or a blessing in disguise
did she leave you- do you love her
have you said your - said your last goodbyes
is it over - are you sorry
could it be a blessing in disguise
it's the scars that make you stronger
it's the hard times that make you wise
it's the sweet things only time brings
that arrive like a blessing in disguise
clouds toll by and bring the rain
tears will dry, and ease the pain
are you lonely - are you crying
are those teardrops in your eyes
is it more blues - is it bad news
is it a curse, or a blessing in disguise..


...(BRYAN ADAMS)

TruLY InSPiraTioNAL....

Progress isn't made by early risers or hardworkers but by lazy people trying to find easier ways to do the same....


......Henry Ford


:):):):):)

LiTE ..Lo....

LiFE iS UnFaiR ....DrinK ...Fag and DancE ...LitE lo YaaR.....!!