ABANDONED...

This blog is being ABANDONED like many other things that i am giving up which were very important in my hitherto life.It may be the end for this blog ,but its part of a new beginning for me....

FinaLLy...ThE LesSonS...!!

Experiences in the recent past ...have bestowed me many valuable lessons ...in life ..!!Life is indeed a learning process ....

1>I shall never ever invest in anything that doesn't promises me returns ...doesn't matter what it is ...business ...career choice ...or relationships (including friendships !) ....I don't need to stand out as the next mother teresa or something ...I am just being human when i put MY happiness first over others ..!Its perfectly OKAY to be selfish....everyone is ..!!! bigg deal ..eh? ...It hurts less when things go bad and people talk rogue to U ...atleast u know ..that u did everything for UR happiness while understanding that even they r doing the same ..!!

2> It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.I m glad that i did it ...i would have never been able to live with those MAYBE's and WHAT IF's...you cannot make someone love you ...don't expect ur LOVE to be understood !!! ...all you can do is to be someone who can be loved ...the rest is up to them ...i am satisfied that i tried my best ...but then sometimes even your best is just not good enough...

3>A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go...i realize now that letting go when required is as important as loving a person ...some things are just meant to b ..while some aren't .....probably one of the most important things to be learned in life is LETTING GO AND MOVING ON ...without bothering much ....I've learned that no matter how much i care ,some people just don't care back...the strategy is to take such people lite !!...don't hold anything against them..but at the same time ...don't let them be a cause for extra worries or interfere with your happiness either ...

4>Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do..i don't believe in the rebirth concept at all ...if it didn't happen in this life ...no need to fool yourself with pseudo optimism that ...u will get lucky in your next life ..lolz ...

5>U deserve what u get ...but its not always true the other way round!!...ie thrz no guarantee that u will always succeed at getting what u deserve ...i realize that NO matter how much u deserve it ...NOT everything will come your way ....in that case ...jus ACCEPT IT ....!!...as someone rightly said .."whatever doesn't kills u will only leave u stronger ..." ...

6>I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief ....NOONE ...and i repeat No1 would/can really understand your pain or wat u r going thriugh ..its U and only U who has to pull yourself together and take take hold of your life...All people do is to give you free advice while what you need is a shoulder for support and a finger to help you get up and moving ...

7>I've learned that learning to forgiving takes practise ....forgiving people who knowingly/unknowingly hurt you ..!!..who said things which speared through your heart ..i realize no matter how good a friend is ,they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that ...or very soon u' ll b just left alone ....In this one case ...PRACTISE WONT MAKE YOU PERFECT .!!....lolz....it'll just equip you better to absorb the pain ...and be more considerate ..u ll never get perfect at forgiving others ...but its OKAY ...Not holding anything against them helps in the long run ...and yeah one more thing....it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others..sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself !!!...actually FORGIVING YOURSELF is the first and most important(and difficult ?) part of the whole deal ....but still do it ...you'll be at peace...

8>I shall never pawn my self respect (again !!)...yes i have an issue with misinterpreting my ego as my self respect many a times ...but offlate more often than not its been the other way round ...in desperately trying to overcome this known weakness of mine ..i ve been too submissive ..(just to make sure ..that i am not on the wrong side ...!!)....no matter what ..i shall NOT compromise with my self respect ..the world can go f**k itself ...

9>I've learned that we are responsible for what we do ,no matter how we feel ..be honest to yourself ..i am accountable for every decision i make in my life ...and i have taken a lot of major onz in the recent past ...i must understand that many times in life...looking back is not an option ...and longer forward no longer a choice....thnx maa ...for giving me the values that give me the strength .. to be the guy who does ...NOT do what he wants to ..but what is RIGHT ...

10>I've learned that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different..I would borrow someonz words to put it int he most perfect way ..."Its all very abstract ..and impulsive ..." ...The world simply doesn't runs by logic ....so don't try to reason out everything ...!!....there r abstract things (which are of imperative importance ...!!) that you'll never understand ..(mental frequencies being a case in point ??? :O ) ...you'll just make yourself miserable trying figuring out ....How the f**K could this be really happening !!!(and on holy earth to ME ?!!)..but then its best to attribute it to human whimsies ...forgive ,forget and move on ...!!!

11>Your family is important ..doesn't matters how far you are ..or how you get along ..never disrespect them ...the least you can do is to value their experience of life ..and listen to your parents ...Trust me ..Sometimes..the people you expect to kick you when you're down,will be the one's to help you get back up ....

12>You r never too old to stop making mistakes ...!!!....i m just 21 !! ...i m bound to make mistakes ... :D :D ....i just wish ..everytime when i lose ...i don't lose the lesson....
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything they just make the most of everything that comes along their way...:):)

13>Keep smiling ...:):) even if you have to fake it ...!!!

After all these years, I am still involved in the process of self-discovery. It's better to explore life and make mistakes than to play it safe. Mistakes are part of the dues one pays for a full life.

~Sophia Loren

WonDeRING...

I’ve been wondering why,
Why do people fall in love?
Is it a necessity?
Is it a desire?
Or a must-do in life?
Cause what I’ve been through,
I don’t feel love’s all that necessary in one’s life…
Unless you’re amongst the dependents,
Who always starve for support
But I’m not that kind
And I can lead my own life,
In harmony, with my and family…
Don’t need a girl, a lover, a companion for life…
Its all fake… doesn’t make any sense to me now and never will…

Kuch Alag ...

Kuch alag alag sa lag raha hai,
kuch galat galat sa lag raha hai,
jaise kudrat ishare kar rahi ho,
jaise dimaag kuch aur soch raha ho..
par dil kuch aur chah raha ho....

kuch dhuan dhuan sa lag raha hai,
kuch ajeeb ajeeb sa lag raha hai,
jaise koi adhura armaan ho,
manzil se door mukam ho,
jaise dil mein utha bewajah koi tufaan ho,
kuch khoya khoya sa lag raha hai,
kuch soona soona sa lag raha hai,
jaise kismat aansuon par fida ho,

jaise zinda to hain..
par zindagi gum shuda ho....

The consuming desire of most human beings is deliberately to plant their whole life in the hands of some other person.I would describe this method of searching for happiness as immature. Development of character consists solely in moving towards self sufficiency.

~ Quentin crisp

i can jus say ...sooo true !!

WorDS...aRe alL thAT i DonT HavE...

Sometimes you may have wondered how come i spoke so much !(I suprise myself even some times !! :D )...blabbering all the time ....but then i am not normally the same with everyone and eevrytime.....i wonder if thats part of a desperate attempt to appear more outspoken than i really am ....while all that prevails inside me is .....silence....a numbing one at that ...

i may talk a lot ....about things ,people ..myself ...but then i've been rarely able to convey the way i really feel...probably the words are too shallow to convey the real depth of the emotions i possess....

I may have used so many words but actually i have said nothing because there is nothing that i can say that would describe how i feel as perfectly as you deserve it ....

(Amongst a flood of thoughts and drought of words ......)

LeTtiN gO...

"To let go isn't to forgot, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free."

In love, it is better to know and be disappointed, than to not know and always wonder....

LiFE & PeopLE...

Life begins as a blank piece of paper. You write on, draw on, tear, erase, and otherwise alter the paper as your life goes on, but its still the same piece. It has the same potential as anyone else's, the same size. But you make it your own, you host your life, in all its shame and glory, upon that page. And most people, they don't give a damn. They're too busy getting pens and ink to look at your piece, let alone to colour their own. And there are those who seek to destroy their paper, or keep it blank and free from danger, but also the charm of a wide life....

But those souls you must look out for are the ones who seek to colour the paper of others, to tinge their lives with rainbow hues... For these are the true artists, who seek to express emotion through action, not word. Through deed, not drawing. Rather than place their expression on a canvas, they take it to the world, and spread it over everyone and everything they see.....

This is the mark of the truly creative; who can create hope where there was only despair....I am blessed to have known at least a few such people so early in my life...I don't know why but i just wish to convey a heartfelt thank you to one of those....Misha Di...Thank you for being there...I am not sure if/how/when i ll have an opportunity to return the favor ..but i promise I'll try my best...