my CONVERSATION wid GOD .....

well, as indicated in my first post ...i ve written posts on love ,life ..and its turn to put up sumthing on GOD ..so here it comes ....

this post is not entirely my wrk though ...this is an assimilated wrk of fiction {and not my hallucinations [:D]} ....but i agree wid all that is thr .[:)]

NB:this is no copy paste entry ....read it to kno dat!!

Buzz

Buzz

God : Hulloooo.... Did u ping me?
Me: pinged you? No.. who is this?
God : This is GOD. I heard ur prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Me: I dont pray.Actually its been sumtime i stopped praying wen u stopped aswerin them .

God:hmm thats y i m here ...

Me: Well i may have stopped praying now {for lotsa reasons ..}But i do remember u. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. i have to finish my ps report ...and presentation ...study java ..so much to do ..so less time ....arggggggh ..its virtually a rush hour everytime ..
God : Sure. Activity gets u busy. But productivity gets u results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on msngr.
God : Well I wanted to resolve ur! fight for time, by giving u some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach u through the medium u are comfortable with.

Me: lol ..kk..but now that u ve cum ..tell me why has life become soo complicated all of a sudden ?
God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.at any point of time ..thr r thousands of channels running in ur mind ....wat if i do dis ...wat if i dont .....cum out of this ...

Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?
God : ur today is the tomorrow that u worried about yesterday.u are worrying because u are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.now u r worried about ur ps wrk ....ur screwed up CGPA ...ur life ...and all ..stop worrying ..time will take care of everything ...

Me: OMG ...oops ...but how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty. .
God : Pain is inevitable able, but suffering is optional.

Me: Cmon stop talkin in codes ...If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Me: huh ...u mean to say such experience is useful?
God : Yes. In all terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, y should we go through such tests?u kno re ....i jus hate tests .. Why cant v jus be free from problems?
God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you! are free from problems.

Me: wowowo...plz cut the bigg words ...i m no gdk ...go talk to him if u want ..he blogs as well..."knioledge is power supreme"...btw he needs u veryy much now ...{counting his exile days in sum forsaken village ...part of his ps wrk u kno ...}...jus tell me in plain simple words ..y is it that i m soo confused ...i simply donno whr m i heading !!!!.
God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading.Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: oh plz ...i m fed up of philosphy ...if u wanna talk philosphy ...mebbe u shuld find sum1 else to pass ur time ...i kno one such guy ..go read vatsa's latest blog entry i m sure ..u ll like him ...but don bug ME wid more philosphy ...btw y is it my life running soo fast ???y do i feel like losin the race ???all the time ..Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me:u ditch me evrytime wen i need u ...!!! how do i stay motivated in tough times !!!???

God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: lol ..yea mebbe ..i m not dat screwed even ..nyways thnx for gettin me werever i m ....kk ..one personal question ...what surprises you about people?
God : when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me"

jus like U... Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: [:O]..kk nm ..i got ur point ..but den lets move to the basics ...Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here.y cant i get the answer ??
God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Me: lol ..but u seriously think dat its possible ???How can I get the best out of life?
God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: hmm well...One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: OMg ..its already 12 ...i have soo much wrk ...and i m sure u mus also b havin sum more worthy wrk than talkin to a vella ???isnt it ?? nyways thanks for the wonderful chat .it helped .
God : Well. okay ..carry on with ur work.Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that took our breath away".

Me:veryy true indeed .....!chalo cya ..bubye tc ...have fun ...!!asta la vesta adios !

God :bye son ..njoy life !

why ???

I love you
And I don’t know why
Everything about you makes my Senses Feel
And I mean it .....!

Your Eyes...That Can make Me Fall with a Single gape...
Your Voice ...That makes Me Melt Inside…
Your Arms...That Make My Knees Feeble and Weak
every time I Think Of, them Wrapped around me...

Your Smile...That Lingers in My Mind
Your Lips...That Stop My World Every Time , When I Think Of Them Touching ...!

What is it All about You ,I Can’t Figure Out?
What is it with You that makes my Heart Shout?
What is it about you that makes Me feel to You That I’m Eternally in Debt?

Is it Because of the Reality..!
That I am Not Worthy of Your Love
That’s why I find it hard to take This Sentiment away from Me
I’m scared.....!!!
Scared of the People around You, That Might Fall For You

Fall for the Same Girl I Love
Because I know someone as Precious as You will be adored Forever..
And Forever is What I’m Trying to Give To You

But I am scared...
Scared of Knowing...
The girl I love has Fallen For someone Else...
But I am Not Able To Realize That
MY BORROWED DREAM is Over ...!

Will Still Continue Feeling The Same Abt Her Forever ..
I wonder ???

PEOPLE WALK INTO UR LIFE ...

People cum into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you kno which one it is, u will know what to do for that person.

A REASON :When sum1 is in ur life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need u have expressed. They have cum to assist u through a difficulty, to provide u with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like God sent and they are. They are there for the reason u need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on ur part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes THEY ACT UP AND FORCE U TO TAKE A STAND {the most common case in my opinion...}. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer u sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

A SEASON:Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But its only for a season.

LIFETIME:Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.


Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were in for a reason, a season or a lifetime..........

WHAT DO YOU DO??

love jus happens --isnt it ??
thrs no reason for loving sum1 --so they say
but
What do you do when you think you're in love?
And that love comes from far up above?
When you first notice the feelings,
do you show them?
Or do you keep them locked inside your heart?
Do you keep them like that until that special one can find them?
Oh please tell me....
What do you do when you think you're in love?

Do you do like I do...
Wish, wait and want?
Or do you just sit and wonder
whether it's right or wrong?
Just tell me,
What do you do when you think you're in love?

WHEN THINGS .....

When little things in life, start getting on to you, it helps once in a while to sit down...and zoom out...out of the city..out of the earth...the solar system..out of the universe...now look closely...YOU DO NOT EXIST...now trying looking for that small thing that was bothering you...

try it out !! it really works !!{atleast for me !}

LOVE U........

I love you
But my love for you
Is unlike all other loves
I keep these innocent feelings
Deep inside my soul
Always keeping you unaware
I don’t know why...
Why am I doing this?

May be because
I think
I am not worthy...
Not worthy of your love.

You are more confident
You are more intelligent
I am shy,
I am always hesitant
You are more desirable,
You are extraordinary
I am quite simple,
so very ordinary

You are more expressive
You are more vibrant
I am very quiet,
so very silent
You are always joyful,
so crazy,
and so mad
I reserve my feelings in my heart..
So sappy, and so sad.

There is only one thing..
Only one thing where you just…
Just cannot surpass me
That’s the Enormous love for you
That has filled the empty soul inside me....!

NOT THINKIN OF U .....

I wake up
In the mornings
And go about
My day

Thinking about
Not thinking
About you

I laugh
With friends
I smile
To strangers

Thinking about
Not thinking
About you

I pretend
I'm happy
Sometimes
I don't
Pretend to be

Thinking about
not thinking
about you.....

But at the end of the day

I turn
down to bed
Blow out
the lights
and
think about
not thinking
about you ..!

How Strange ..?

LOSING IT ALL.....

It is a terrible thing for a person to lose the will to live.

It is an extremely terrible thing
for an artist to lose the will to create...
or a dancer to lose the will to dance...
or a singer to lose the will to sing......

I call these people depressed.
But it is the worst of all,
when a child loses the will to dream.

I call these people adults.
No matter how hard we try,
We will inevitably be forced by social conditioning to turn into adults.
That is a sad thing.
But lucky for the world,
there are still children,
And with children come dreams, and hope.

And that is why I do not want to grow up ever.

I used to believe that if I stayed in bed,
I would stay in yesterday,
I would never grow up..Just like Peter Pan.
Just like tom n jerry...
It didn't work.

Now,
People want to judge me when they truly do not see
All I am, all I want, all I need to be complete
They see I’m not a girl seeker..
a man, a momentarily cool one
I do not dare to understand
Why they dont see me, on my judgment..?


maybe I don't know how to talk
cause I spent most of my life in silence
maybe I'm afraid to make a move
cause I fear that it will just cause you...hate me
may be i dont know how to act with kindness
cause i dont have any...

why be better when you can be Equal...??
why attack when you defend..?


n if others think the same
wat has rest of humanity missed...!

............................

My Unsaid words
My Untitled story
My Untold feelings
My Nameless relation
My Incomplete Narration
My Unwished desires
My Unspoken Love
Are All like a Broken Promise!

Things i wish I'd say To you One Day,
like a past never Can Come Back
I Know Other Then Hello , Hi..
There Should be Something Else Said,
But I Absolutely Hate Admitting that to Myself ,
{But I had too..!}
I Love Youuu..!
{I'm Sorry, I Just Can't Deny the truth}

But;
How Do You End That Thing You Didn't Start ?
How Do You Mend an Unbreaking Heart?
How Can Your Unwished Desire Be fulfilled ?
How Can Your Unspoken Love Be Heard ?
How Can Your Undescribed Feelings Be Understood ?

Then I Think,
If You Could not Understand My Silence
Then, Probably You Would Never Have Understood My Words Too..!

SoMeTiMeS!!!

This one is another of my favs from
Salman....U jus rock dude ...

sometimes i smile
sometimes i cry
sometimes im fearful
sometimes i want to die
sometimes im tearful
sometimes im happy
sometimes im sad
sometimes im sappy
sometimes im mad
sometimes i cant say
sometimes i talk all the way
sometimes i want to hold my breath
sometimes i want to call upon death ..........

I just live every emotion ,Moment by moment.. Day by day ....!!!

WHAT are you DOING with your LIFE ?

oh yeah ..this was the title of the book by j. krishnamurti i read today ....i got it day bfr yesterday frm landmark {the forum mall ..koramangla ,bangalore }...i was in no mood to part wid the lil money i was left wid [after payin for the exorbitant house rent jus a few days ago ...{6000 buks for two months ...!}..and den gettin an airtel broadband connection again made me poorer by 2000 bucks ...]..atleast on books ...but den the question on the face of this book was too potent to b jus ignored ...i turned to the preface ...only to find that this was one of those books ....wich deserved to b spared even the last penny in my pocket ..........

wat was soo special in the preface that prompted me to purchase it ...??

well !!thr were questions ......and more questions ...!!!

-->don't u want to find wat u really love to do in life ,instead of merely aiming at a career?

-->are ambition and competition really necessary in order to live in dis modern world ?

-->wat is ur response to the problems of society , such as poverty ,corruption and violence ?

-->wat is ur relationship to ur parents and teachers based on ?submission ?rebellion ?...understanding ?

-->what do love and marriage mean to u ?

-->how do u deal wid ur own psychological problems like boredom ,jealousy ,hurt ,pleasure

fear and sorrow ?

-->wat r ur views on the purpose of human existence,on death ,meditation,religion and God ?

rnt these pertinent questions in every1 of us's lives ???

well atleast they r ..in mine ....

so it wasnt really a tuf decision to go for it or not ..:)

[btw i have always believed in ...

"if a book is worth readin it ...it is worth buyin it ..."]

Now that i knew my 40 min trip to my ps station {yea ...traffic in bangalore sux ....}was goin to b borin enuf and dat today i may have to spend most of my time thr also waitin for mr prabhakar{asstt manager BgSE ...bangalore stock exchange ..and my Practise school station supervisor....}...i decided to grab the copy ... while leavin for Bgse .......

Te introduction to the author was another revelation ..dis guy was born of indian parents but had his education in england ....blah blah blah ....shuld suffice to state that krishnamurty was conferred as one of the 5 saints of the 20 th century by the TIME magazine ...{along wid others like dalai lama and mother teresa ...}....and dat he went on to enlighten ppl all over the world wid his philosphy ....

hmm pretty gud read ..dis one mus b ..i thot...mebbe dis was the book i was lookin for all the time durin my desperate search for a philosphy book wich shall explain me the true meaning and purpose of life and existence ...over the past few years ....

the book starts wid a discussion of human mind and our inner self ....

actually the book is not a start -->finish piece of writing but rather a collection of krishnamurti's conversations wid students all over the world ...

he talks abt love,sex,relationships,pleasures,ambitions,fear,consciousness,pain ,sorrow ...worship ...GOD .....and wat not ...

soo....wats different here !!! ...than other phillosphy books ...and preachers ....???

yea ..dats whr the diff lies ....krihsna DOESNT PREACHES .......he rather takes u on the path of self discovery ...

he keeps on posing questions after questions ....and asks u to discover the answers ......URSELF!

there is no path,no authority ,no guru to follow .....he makes u believe U have he capacity in urself to find out what u r ,wat r u doing wid ur relationships and wid ur wrk.

its all abr experimenting on ur own....someone else's truth sounds only like opinion until u try it out for urself.....V must look thru the microscope of life oursleves ,or v ll b left wid the dust of words ..and not the actual perception of life .....

how true !!! isnt it ???

the crux of his teaching ..{really ?}..is .....U ..he helps u discover urself ..self knowledge is all he stresses all the time ...throughout the text ....

i liked it ???

hmm .....YES! ....a real nice read .

{warning : it shudnt b read like a novel .....but taken as a wrkbook ...}

lemme c ...whr does the application of his principles ..takes me on the road of self discovery ...!!

{for the time being ..i m veryyy much impressed !...}

LOVE!!

The word that has amazed me all the time{and still amazes me ..} with the different meanings it acquires in different contexts .have you ever wondered how a single word could mean soo much!! .but for most of us and most of the time we happen to limit its meaning to that special feeling for that sumone special belonging to the opposite sex...isnt it ???

Have you ever been in love? terrible isn't it? It makes u so vulnerable.It opens ur chest and it opens up ur heart and it means that someone can get inside u and mess u up. You build up all these defenses, u build up a whole suit of armour, so that nothing can hurt u, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into ur stupid life...u give them a piece of u. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss u or smile at u, and then ur life isn't ur own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside u. It eats u out and leaves u crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-u-and-rips-u-apart pain.